August 18, 2010. My wife and I went to Niagara Falls for my Birthday. I felt like a little child. I have seen a lot of things; however, for some reason waterfalls reasonate for me. I love doing things with my little family. It was moving to witness the earth hold its ground against such a force. As I held my son, I recalled catching him at his birth and how I felt omnipresent. The past present and future was before me. Eli will be as the waters of Niagara. He will grow and develope into a man that holds his ground agianst contrary forces. His character will roar as the falling niagara waters, pounding his mark upon history and misting humanity. I have the opportunity to publish an essay concerning childbirth here in November for a new book. (The Gift of Giving Life) I feel inadequate as a father, husband and man at times. At times, I feel powerful and confident. I desire Eli to have a consistency like the waters of Niagara. The waters continually flow with such tremendous force.
Sept 3, 2012 Addendum:
As I read this, more than a year later, I realize how beautiful my desires are for my son. I also realize my projection. We often project onto our children and need be cautious in how we realize are hopes and wishes for them. As beautiful as it may be, my son is his own entity with God given agency. We must balance the two realities as parents.
Sept 3, 2012 Addendum:
As I read this, more than a year later, I realize how beautiful my desires are for my son. I also realize my projection. We often project onto our children and need be cautious in how we realize are hopes and wishes for them. As beautiful as it may be, my son is his own entity with God given agency. We must balance the two realities as parents.
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